#2 Bob Dylan - People seldom do what they believe in - they do what is convenient, then repent.

A little frantic this week. 'Couple of disappointments, couple o' ups and downs.. and as always, anticipation. Always the slight fear, the slight joy, the slight longing, the slight disturbance.

The beautiful thing about blogging on a fixed schedule is that you have to plumb your mind's depths to find something to write, and checking the pipes does help you see all the good caught in the joints. I had a helluva time with the scout activities last week, which is a blessing after the first two fiascoes. Third time's the charm, I guess.

I found a poem that I wrote a while ago, when I was feeling down. Interpret it however you like, though it was written for my exact situation, literal without metaphors.

(rustles about)

Lost it. I hope that's a sign that all my bad memories will fade or some New Age-y nonsense like that. Well, no matter! I'll post it when I find it.

I've just watched Atonement this weekend, so to atone (pun, pun) for it - it was such a depressing movie - I've been going through QI clips, which, in case you've never heard of QI, are really the most hilarious things that you can learn from. Of course, since it's THE Stephen Fry hosting, it quite goes without saying that it's both intellectual and jaw-achingly funny.

I also did some very productive studying, which helped me understand natural frequency and resonance, which we learn in Physics. (Studying, by the way, is the Ultimate Cure for misery, as it tends to take your mind off things.) Now, a short Physics lesson. Or at least, what I understand of it.

WAVES

Waves are the transfer of energy causing a disturbance through space and time.

Natural Frequency - When an object oscillates/vibrates without interruption, it will tend to a frequency we call natural frequency. Not sure why, haven't gone that deep, but just oscillate a pendulum and leave it. The frequency it goes at after a while is the natural frequency.

Resonance - An object forced to vibrate at its natural frequency is at resonance. At this point it will oscillate with greater amplitude than it otherwise would. Since it's sort of like adding on to the natural frequency, the great amplitude can cause breaking and stuff.

That's what I now know.

Now, before I pop off, a word of relief and joy for the success of this past week:

YES.

And a wish for this next one:

That I can finish all my planned studying, and NOT pick a fight with anyone.

Well then, it's gute Nacht for me! :)

#1 Abe Lincoln - People are just about as happy as they make up their minds to be.

Sunday Morning..

I'm in one of those introspective, calm moods where all those little frustrations I've had all week seem petty and easily solved.

(That's pretty normal on a weekend. Just wait for Monday.)

Anyway, before I start to get manic-depressive and miserable and mourning-Monday, it's time to show myself how incredibly exaggerated my worries are. First of all, it must be said that to err is human. So for those people who've been pissing me off quite astonishingly well this past week... they're only human. Even if they're supposedly deserving of my respect. Even if they're supposedly more mature and wise and reasonable etc etc; still, they're not perfect. They have their insecurities and anger and bad days like all of us.

Next, it's important to forgive. No need for elaboration.

Third! To be effective, be clear. I haven't been as clear on many things as I should have been. As a person who receives orders and instructions I like to have them detailed and straightforward, unquestionable from sheer clarity. I like that. Needless to say it makes them so much easier to follow. I'll give clearer and less subjective orders next time.

I enjoy athletics and should be cool with competition. Losing isn't a sin. Berating yourself when you've given it your all - that's a sin.

So now I'll have a little wish:
I wish I were a more dedicated student.

And a wish granted:
It's a weekend, plenty of time to do what I want.

Now off to bed - laku noć!